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Wednesday, July 28, 2010


Matthew's cranial ultrasound results came back today, and we were encouraged by what we were told. The same radiologist read this scan as well as the last. The radiologist diagnosed his bleed as now just a grade 2, not a grade 2-3. This is encouraging to us as it has not gotten bigger...if anything it has gotten smaller. He will not have another scan before he leaves the hospital. He probably won't have another diagnostic test for a couple of months. This is both unsettling and reassuring. The next test will most likely be something more accurate like a CT scan or an MRI. Dr. L and Suzanne really are not worried. I'm trying not to be either. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you for praying with us and for him!!! Please continue to pray for him as God lays him on your heart.

He really is doing very well. He passed his car seat test today. He had his Hep B vaccine and will have his metabolic screen in the morning. I'm not sure when he will have his circumcision, but it will be soon. They took his feeding tube out today and they are feeding him ad lib every four hours. Basically this means he can take as much as he wants; there is no set number of cc's he has to drink. If I nurse him, they will feed him sooner than the four hours because we don't know exactly how much he is getting from the breast. And when he comes home, I will feed him on demand when he is hungry. He is still maintaining his temperature well. He has to be 48 hours without a drop in his heart rate and he can come home. YIKES! It's so exciting but scary at the same time. We could be looking at only 2-3 days if he does well...

He is only 35 weeks gestational age today. It's amazing how well he has done and how far he has come in only 12 days! I'm so proud and thankful! We are truly blessed! So far, he has proven the "Wimpy White Boy" syndrome wrong! Praise the Lord!!!

We continue to pray that he does well, comes home soon and his bleed continues to get smaller and disappears with no lasting complications.

I'm posting a little earlier tonight because I'm going to tackle the baby's room. I can't call it Grady's room anymore. But I can't call it Matthew's room just yet. It's not ready for him. My sweet NICU friend/nurse, Lori, took care of Matthew today. I told her the task ahead of me, and she sweetly told me all Matthew needs is some diapers, milk and a bassinet in my room. She is so very right, but I need that room to be ready for Matthew when he comes home. It's just the right thing and my heart will not be at rest until it's done.

I have my two week post-op appointment with Dr. Joe tomorrow. The girls and I are going to see Toy Story 3 in the afternoon. This is what Jessica chose to do as our special activity before Baby Matthew comes home. She chose that or bowling. I can't quite throw a bowling ball, I'm afraid, and I figured we could take Matthew bowling later much easier than we could take him to a movie. I'm looking forward to spending some time with them...things are going to be very different when Matthew comes home. Different in a good way...but challenging all the same!



  1. This is all good news! Our prayers are being answered (:>)

    Enjoy Toy Story....the girls will like that.

    Love and continued prayers,

  2. Sounds like God is showing out and answering our prayers. So thankful, I can since the peace in your post tonight. The girls will love Toy Story 3, it was wonderful. Enjoy!
    Prayers and Love,

  3. Praise the Lord Tonya! I have been praying for him every day that the Lord will take away his bleed. So thankful for all of the good things He is doing in your life!

  4. Yeah! So glad to hear the good report. I hope that Matthew comes home soon. I look forward to meeting that precious little miracle.

  5. This is wonderful news! I have been praying for Matthew and your entire family. So have my parents - they say hello. We will continue to pray that you get to bring him home soon and your family will be under one roof safely.
    Love you,

  6. thank you for sharing this news!!! i am thanking the lord!!!

  7. Hey Tonya, I am so happy for you and your family! Praising God, and continuing to pray!

  8. Tonya,
    The tears are flowing this morning - tears of joy for good news and answered prayers. Believing that his bleed will disappear, and your worries of that can go away. Also, tears come as I think of the difficult job of your nursery prep. I am praying for strength and peace with that task. Sorry about the weepiness... I really am so very joyful about Matthew's continue growth and improvement :)