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Monday, July 26, 2010

Change of Plans

This is a quick post tonight.

During my visit with Matthew today, I learned the next ultrasound of his brain will be in the morning, Tuesday, instead of Friday. Another doctor is on call and wrote the order today. I have mixed, conflicting feelings about this because Dr. L was adamant that the longer we wait, the more accurate the results. But, at the same time, I have to admit it will be nice to see what's going inside that cute little head of his. Hopefully nothing but shrinking of the bleed!

I nursed him again and he did great. We weighed him before and after he ate, and he took a whole ounce from me! I know that doesn't sound like much, but that's the best he's nursed so far. He had several dips in his heart rate today which is normal but very nerve wracking. He had one while I was nursing him and two while he was sleeping earlier in the day. Full term babies probably do this, they just aren't on a monitor to see it. They increased his feedings again, now to 46 cc's every three hours.

Have I mentioned how much Matthew LOVES his paci? Well, he does. Following in his oldest sister's shoes I'm afraid!

I took some cute pictures of him, but I'm too tired to get the camera and download them. I don't know if I'm just lazy or worn out. I will get them posted because he was showing off his legs and feet. And as I was holding him today, I thought he looked like Grady for the first time.

I'll let you know the results of his scan as soon as I get them. I'm hoping and praying for some good news! Thanks for praying with us!

And one more thing. The nurse practitioner told me to bring in some clothes for him as they want to wean him to an open crib without the heat. So, tonight, I got Grady's clothes out to wash and dry for his little brother. Luckily, the girls were very excited to help, and I didn't have too much time to think about it. I just had to do it because I won't have time tomorrow before I go to the hospital. (I'm getting my hair cut and colored...WHOOPEE!) Tackling Grady's cards and momentos this week is going to be another story with much more emotion.




  1. i hope you get great news tomorrow....

    and i can only imagine how hard it was to get out grady's clothes...i had a girl after losing the boys so i didnt really have to do that...sending you hugs....

  2. Oh Tonya I hope the results are good tomorrow. I will be praying! Try to rest in the Lord. (Hugs)

  3. Praying for your whole family Tonya! Praying that God will cease the bleeding and that He will give your family peace and comfort. Love you!
    P.S. You are not lazy for not posting pictures, you have got to be emotionally and physically exhausted! Please take care of yourself!

  4. I am praying for baby matthew.... amiee just reached out to me TODAY as I had no idea what all has been happening..... we are praying for you all! love you!! Julie and the Abare Family
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