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Sunday, September 27, 2009

My New Look

No, not my hair! My blog!

I'm not 100% sold on this new look. I wanted something different, so I chose this the other day. It's called "pumpkin bread". And I LOVE pumpkin bread! And I LOVE those pumpkin/chocolate chip cookies that a friend of mine makes...

...but, I hate pumpkin pie!

Strange, I know.

I wish I had the moolah to spend on a professional blog look.


Because I just do!

There are some really cute free backgrounds, but I ran out of time and chose this one. I'm not sure how long it's here for...

I wish I was daring and could go a little crazy on a real new look this week. I have a hair appointment Wednesday morning, and let me tell you, it won't come fast enough! I'm OVER it!

Does that ever happen to you? I'm sure I'm the only one, right?

I wish I could just chop it all off, but seeing as how my hair is naturally curly, that would probably be a very bad idea. At least if I wanted to look somewhat presentable to the general public! Not to mention that my most prized and cherished CHI flat iron is broken, and I haven't sent it off to be fixed yet. It's only been broken for about a month now.


Enough about new looks...

In other news, we took a very big step with Buddy yesterday. We removed the barricades that kept him confined in our rather spacious kitchen/breakfast room. He now has free reign over the house.


We keep the doors to the bedrooms, bathrooms, and playroom closed. He has had a few tee-tee accidents on the carpet but I expected that. Overall he's done really well.

We took him to Jessica's softball game Thursday night and he did great! Kids were all over him and he was very pleasant and tolerant of them. I must say that I'm a proud "puppy-mama"!


We hosted our small group at our house tonight. It kicked my rear in gear to clean my house good. ALL rooms are clean, even the playroom.

Oh, the playroom...

My girls have way too much stuff! Jessica said they needed a little help cleaning it. Let me tell you that when I got up there I couldn't walk.


It was the biggest mess I've ever seen. I don't go up there often. Why? Because I have no reason to. But rest assured that that most certainly WILL change! I will do weekly checks (at the minimum) to make sure that it NEVER gets that bad again. I was so disappointed that my girls would treat their stuff in such a way. And one thought has definitely weighed on me...

They have so much stuff, they can't appreciate what they have.

I really want to donate some of it, but I want to donate it to the right place/organization. If any of you have any ideas (preferably local) that would be great! I want the girls to see how blessed they are. I want to instill in them a spirit of giving, not just of their junk, but of their nice stuff that they don't often play with. And that would be lots of stuff!


This has been a very rambled post, and will be for just a wee bit longer. I truthfully sat down to write about "Worry" again, but I'm just too tired. I need to work on it when I'm fresh and more awake. I know I've told you how much I love our church before, but the last few sermons have been AWESOME! And I love the music! I am VERY much ministered to through music. Today we had the privilege of having the band "Echoing Angels" lead our worship. If you listen to a Christian radio station, you've probably heard them. It was WONDERFUL!


My breast cancer walk is this coming weekend. My foot is much better, but it's definitely still sore. I'm honestly very worried about how I'm going to complete this walk!

Prayer! Prayer! Prayer!


The weather is turning fall here. I just took Buddy out a few minutes ago and there is a definite chill in the air. Fall is my favorite season!


I think I'm going to make this cake for Grady's one year heaven day. Don't you love it?!?! A baker I am not. A mother who loves and misses her baby boy I am, and I will go to great lengths to make that a special day, Lord willing!

I'm going to need more than just a rainbow that day...

Well, my rambling has come to an end, and I bet you're glad! HA! Hope you have a great week!



  1. Tonya-
    I checked out the cake - you go girl! I haven't done anything layered in a long time. I'll bet the girls are excited.

    I know what you mean about the toys getting out of control. About a year and half ago, we took a bunch of stuff to a Christian shelter for moms and their kids who were in transition. It was a good experience. Maybe you can find something like that local. Or have a sale and have the girls donate the $ to a particular cause.

    I also love fall - my favorite season, though in past years it seems like we (in MN) go straight from summer to winter. I have tons of pumpkins in the garden to harvest and need some good recipes. I also don't care for pumpkin pie - eww! I saw Dairy Queen carries a pumpkin pie blizzard - double eww!

    Glad to hear things are improving with Buddy!

  2. Saw your comment over at KellysKorner and wanted to pop by and say hi. I love Biggest Loser too.

    I hope your foot feels better by the walk; I've walked the Susan G. Komen the last two years. My mother-in-law is a breast cancer survivor.

    Have a great day!

  3. Tonya,
    I will be jpraying for you with the walk this upcoming weekend. I think it is great that you are doing that... OK, now we are a lot alike... I was kind of thinking of trying that cake for Samuel's birthday, weird or what... I am not sure if I have the gumption though... we will see, it is so beautiful, a cheery cake. We will need lots of cheery to get through that day. I am really trying to think of what we can do. We want to give to Shaohannah's Hope, that is Steven Curtis Chapmans adoption grant agency. I think I want to purchase something for the family, something we can do together and maybe get one each year... a present for the family that the kids can open since Samuel isn't here to open any presents. I know it will be a rough day... I am already dreading it, but at the same time for the kids sake I do really want to focus on it being Samuel's 1 year birthday in Heaven...

    Praying for you, been thinking about you a lot as we near one year. I am holding you up before our Lord. How has work been going?
    Sending love and prayers from OK.

  4. I like your new blog look. The background is very cute. :) Your blog post reminded me of mine - a little bit of this and a little bit of that! ha!

    Tonya, thanks so much for praying for Harrison. I appreciate your prayers so much.


  5. Like the new look. I love the cool weather because it gives me an excuse to wear warm clothes. I love the toasty feeling.

  6. I think I want to purchase something for the family, something we can do together and maybe get one each year.