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Saturday, May 15, 2010

Tidbits from T

I'm not sure if you enjoy them, but I enjoy writing my tidbits. They allow me to share what's been going on without having to write a bunch of different posts...

~~~I realized this morning how very far behind on my blog I am. I'm trying to document special times for our family so that when I have my blog turned into a book, those moments will be included. I still have not posted pictures or told about Emma Grace's 7th birthday, nor have I shared about our spring break or Mother's Day this year. I will get it done...better late than never, I guess!

~~~I had a little scare with Dumplin' yesterday and made an impromptu visit to Dr. Joe. I had cramping and contractions yesterday morning. Not braxton-hicks. Real contractions. Fortunately my cervix looked fine, the contractions stopped and I haven't had more since. He did another FFN test, and I'm going back for my regular appointment Wednesday. At least Dumplin' has been active, so I haven't had that to worry about on top of the contractions. The other good news is that I only measured 30cm again, and I'm 24 weeks. Hopefully this huge gap is going to start closing so I can look a little more normal for where I'm at in my pregnancy.

Needless to say my anxiety level has been out the roof, and my mind has been wandering like crazy. I'm trying to cling to Isaiah 26:3, "You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you." (Except I change it to 'me' and 'I' to make it more personal.) And another verse, Philippians 4:7, "And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

It is hard for me to grasp the thought of holding a healthy, living baby boy in my arms after all that has happened. Praying he stays put and grows well. Is healthy. And born alive.

12 more weeks...

~~~My calendar is doing me absolutely NO GOOD in helping me remember birthdays. Forget the fact that they are highlighted and everything...I've missed every birthday on my calendar the last few months. I feel terrible! This past week I missed a very special someone who is like a mom to me. And last month I missed my aunt and uncle's birthday along with one of my BFF's, Mary Beth.


~~~We don't have much planned this weekend other than church and small group on Sunday. Gib is working today, AGAIN. Poor guy left every morning this week between 4:30-5am and didn't get home before 8-9pm every night (except for Monday...he did make it home for Jessica's last game). This afternoon I'm looking forward to going to Dairy Queen with my friend Amy Ellen. We haven't been able to really hang out and chat since her baby was born in December. And to make the time sweeter, a blizzard is calling my name! I think I'll try Butterfinger this time instead of Reese's.

~~~I made a little progress in cleaning this week. I got half of my bedroom done. I want to get a basket to put books in that Gib and I are waiting to read. Our nightstands and dressers are cluttered with them and the bookshelves in our family room have no extra space. But I have managed to keep my island cleaned off which is no small feat. It is the catch-all for everything! I'm hoping to get my room finished today, but I have four containers of maternity clothes to put away and/or return. I'm so thankful for the loaned items because I made a trip to Motherhood this past week which was a disaster. It deserves its own post...

~~~The girls are entering their last week of school. And a busy one it will be! On top of normal life and getting ready for end-of-the-year parties and gifts for teachers, I have a hair appointment (PTL!), a doctor's appointment, a PTO meeting, an awards ceremony for Jessica and two days of work. Makes me tired to think about it all!

~~~And I can't forget to mention that I won a copy of Angie Smith's book, "I Will Carry You" from Kelly at Sufficient Grace!!! You don't know how excited I was when I found out! Angie's blog and her faith through Audrey Caroline's death completely changed my perspective on Grady's stillbirth. One of the few things that I learned from her...she helped me see that it was a priviledge to be chosen by God to carry him and fulfull his purpose on this earth even if for a short time. I can't wait to read her book. Thanks so much Kelly!

Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!



  1. I love you Tonya... I love to hear what is going in your life... I wish we lived closer to experience it on a daily basis together... but it is great to experience it through your tidbits:) Thanks so much for all of the prayers over these last fews day.... they are so appreciated... love you friend!

  2. Hi Tonya. I just had to come over here and tell you something. You have been in my thoughts lately, but I didn't have your blog bookmarked and couldn't remember what it was. But, I have been thinking of you and wondering how you were doing. I ran across your blog awhile back from Lynnette's. Anyways, I just couldn't believe it today when I went to Kelly's blog and saw that you had won the book that I originally won! I just thought that was amazing and such a God story! As soon as I saw your face in the comments, I was like, that's the one I've been thinking about! Now I'm a follower so I don't lose your blog again. :) Congrats on winning the book. My friend let me borrow hers so I didn't need another is an amazing book that you will love!

  3. Praying for you and "dumplin" Can't wait to meet him!!