Dear Emma Grace,
I really want to write about your birthday party this past weekend, complete with pictures. But honestly, I'm very tired and too lazy (and impatient) for all of the pictures to load tonight. So, I decided to write you a letter instead.
Do you know how much I love you? I don't think you have any idea...and you probably won't even be able to process it until you have your own children one day. But as I always tell you and Jessica, "I love you to infinity and back!" That might not make sense, but it's okay. My love for you is positively never-ending!
I have been very emotional on this 7th birthday of yours. I have found myself tearing up more than usual. Especially when I think of what could have been... I do rejoice in your life, but it helps me to think back. It helps me to appreciate your life even more, as I remember how fragile your little body was. It helps me to see God's mercies anew and thank Him for protecting you, watching over you, helping the doctors and nurses have the wisdom to know what was best for you, and for blessing our lives with you every day. Each year, you become more of a miracle to me. I am in awe of how God truly spared your life seven years ago when you were born. I knew the majority of what could happen as a result of you being born so early, but I can definitely attest that God put some blinders on me, both while on bed rest with you AND while you were in the NICU.
I think you had a pretty good birthday today. I made cinnamon rolls for breakfast, which I know is a treat. Sure beats the typical breakfast of a waffle or cereal! You really enjoyed them and even ate two!
I took cupcakes to your class and read the book "Albert the Bear" to you and your friends. You enjoyed pink & green cupcakes and Cheetos Puffs after they sang "Happy Birthday" to you. You picked seven friends to stand as candles, with their arms raised in the air, and you got to "blow them out" one by one. As you "blew them out" they fell to the ground. I had never seen this before, and I have to say it was really cute. I enjoyed coming to your school for that short time to celebrate with you. And I was so surprised when I picked you up this afternoon and saw that you were still wearing your birthday crown that you were given this morning at school.
Your BFF, Caroline, came home with you this afternoon. Y'all had a great time playing after you enjoyed a vanilla ice cream cone with Jessica (except she had chocolate). After Caroline left, you enjoyed this beautiful day by playing outside with Jessica and your other BFF, Sidney.
You requested a special dinner tonight. You wanted steak, mashed potatoes and broccoli. However, about an hour before dinner, you changed your mind and wanted green beans. Since it was your birthday, I obliged and went back to the store. But only because it was your birthday!
I was very sad, though, because when you came in from playing, you had a terrible headache. I gave you Tylenol but it hurt so bad that you couldn't sit at the table to eat your birthday dinner. You curled up on the sofa and promptly fell asleep. We didn't get to sing or anything. I hate that you weren't feeling well. But, I saved your dinner for you in case you want it tomorrow. And don't worry, we'll sing to you tomorrow since we didn't get to today.
Happy Birthday Sweet Girl! I'm so happy to be your Mommy! I love you more than words can say!!!
Hugs and Kisses!
(To read her story of prematurity, click her picture on the left side-bar)