Thank you for visiting my blog! If you are visiting because you have experienced a pregnancy or infant loss, let me say that I am so very sorry. I started this blog shortly after our Baby Grady was stillborn on November 12, 2008. Please visit the sidebar below called "Labels" to find the topic in which you are interested, or just read as your heart desires.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

In This Issue...

...important nutrition information for your 12-month old. Encouraging your toddler to self-feed. Introducing dairy at 12 months. Engaging your toddler at the family table.

I was cleaning off the stack of papers that have accumulated on my island and that popped me straight in the face. Hit me like a ton of bricks.

I'm not sure how this one slipped by me.

When I get anything baby-related in the mail, I hardly look at it. It goes straight into the recycle bin, unless I think it has a coupon and then I put it in my neighbor's mailbox.

But not this one. This magazine made it into my house, and I blindly picked it up.


Straight to my heart it went.

I burst into tears (which are still falling I might add).

I think of having an almost one-year old all the time.

Every day.

But when I read, "engaging your toddler at the family table" it tore my heart out in a different way.

And I can't describe it.

He would be moving into toddlerhood.

And there will always be an empty chair at the dinner table...



  1. Please imagine a hug from me. My heart hurts for the pain you are going through. I will continue to pray peace and comfort over you.

  2. Tonya, my heart just hurt for you as I read that post. Tonya, your pain is real and deep and still so fresh and new even almost a year later. It is ok to feel all that you are. You grieve deeply because you loved him so very much. I am sure that Grady could feel your love for him, your strong, deep, mommy love. It is hard to wrap your brain around a toddler isn't it... when we have missed so much inbetween. Do you think the boys are still infants or already toddlers or older. I hope we get to hold them and snuggle them.

    Tonya... you are so heavy on my heart these days. I just wish I could pop over and give you a big hugand sit and visit together. Sending hugs and prayers your way.

  3. Tonya my heart also hurts for you. I am amazed at your bravery and honesty, as always, on the blog. Thank you for sharing your hurt heart, I'm praying healing and peace for you through this difficult season.

  4. I'm so sorry, sweet friend...there is nothing like the ache of a mother's heart for her baby...

    Love and Prayers for you...

  5. I just wanted to thank you for sharing your heart and for always encouraging me with your comments. I don't always get around to my blog friends as much as I want. But, I do read the comments, and they so minister to my spirit and encourage my heart. Thank you...and please know that you are in my prayers. I so appreciate your bloggy-friendship.

  6. My heart felt heavy as I read this post & tears pricked at my eyes. I often read your blog & don't often comment, but I do keep you in my thoughts & prayers.

  7. I hate when that happens, so sorry you had to go through it. I know it typically hits me when I least expect it.

    I would love to see you when I'm in Georgia too. Maybe we can do lunch or something.

    Praying for you!


  8. After moving 3 times since Owen died, I still get those dang things!
    I'm so sorry...
    it hurts so much to be reminded of what we are missing.
    Praying for you today. Remembering Grady today.