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Friday, October 30, 2009

Pumpkin Pics (and Buddy, too!)

I wanna go deep tonight. But I can't. I can't because 1) I can't choose which "deep" topic to blog about, and 2) I don't have the energy to go there. I have a feeling that I'll be going pretty "deep" the next couple of weeks...

'Cuz that's how I'm feeling these days.

My thoughts are jumbled. My heart is heavy. My feelings are hurt. I'm feeling a bit lonely and betrayed by people I thought I was close to. I'm overwhelmed by even the simple things in life. Will it ever get better?

So, on a lighter note, I'll just share pumpkin pictures with you!

We went to the pumpkin patch yesterday, and Jessica brought this one to me. She said, "Mama, this looks like a good Baby Grady pumpkin doesn't it?"

To be honest, I wasn't planning to get one for him. But we did. How could I resist when Jessica thought of it all on her own? She does surprise me at times because she isn't as vocal about Grady as Emma Grace. But I'm convinced she thinks about him just as much! We're planning to put a candle on top of it tomorrow night when we light the others.

It's a tradition that Gib carves the pumpkins with the girls. I'm the picture-taker, and Gib gets to do all of the work. Thankfully Gib enjoys it and is willing to do it because I would have NO idea where to start!

Jessica wanted a spider. Emma Grace wanted her pumpkin to look like this...

Here's how they turned out. (I realized as I was posting these that I didn't get a good view of the designs so I'll do that tomorrow)

Jessica is planning to dress up as an "umpa lumpa" and Emma Grace will be a ladybug (we bought her costume last year but she was sick so she agreed to be one again this year). I'll post pictures of their costumes after trick-or-treating. Hopefully the weather will hold out...there's an 80% chance of rain tomorrow.

I'm sick of the rain!!!

It does nothing to lift my spirits and gives me a headache!

Buddy got neutered last Thursday the 22nd. He did great until Friday evening when he licked the glue off his incision. That bought him some staples and this lampshade around his head.

He got his staple out today (there was only one left because he somehow pulled out the other two!) and the lampshade will come off tomorrow. He's SO cute. He's a pain in the hiney at times, but I can't tell you how much I've grown to love this dog!


1 comment:

  1. Oh Tonya,
    I loved hearing your sweet southern voice on my machine:) It is 12:15 on the 31st... we survived. I will post all about it. Praise God He was faithful to get us through... and really it was better than I was anticipating... in general... you know, not good, but better than I had thought it would be. The cake turned out great.

    I want you to know I understand the heaviness in your heart. Mine is heavy for you friend. Honestly I pray for you and my other grieving mama friends right when I open my eyes in the morning. I think immediately I always think, I need God's sustaining power to get me through this day... and I know you all do too.

    Tonya I am commited to praying for you in earnest over these next few weeks. I am trusting God to be faithful to carry you through. Thinking of our sweet boys together in Heaven. Someone sent me a card today that said she thought Samuel would be the first to greet me in Heaven and would show me around. I liked that thought. Thinking of you and praying for you Tonya... your family too:)