I don't have tough skin. At all! I would never make it in a cut-throat business environment. I'm very sensitive and wear my heart on my sleeve where everyone can see it.
When I started my blog, I hoped to have at least some followers. I didn't know if anyone would want to read my blog or not, but I knew that I needed to write about my feelings and emotions. I didn't want to limit my blog to just my grief for Grady even though he was the inspiration for me starting one. I wanted to blog about other things, mainly important moments with my girls and our life in general. Hence, the general name "Tonya Talk".
I never expected to have a huge following like MckMama or Angie Smith or Kelly's Korner. And to be honest, I think that would be a bit overwhelming for me.
But instead of gaining followers, I'm losing them. I know I haven't been the best blogger lately. I have things I want to write, but I just don't make the time during the day to sit and blog. I'm trying to work on that. Really, I am.
However, since I announced our decision to try for another baby, I have lost three followers and one before that. I logged onto Blogger this morning and my heart sank when I saw that I had lost another. I don't have a list of my followers, so I really don't know who has left. I do know and understand it's a free country, and we can do as we please. I also know and understand that for someone who is struggling and walking down the dark road of grief that it may be too much to continue reading here in the face of exciting baby news to come.
I just wish I knew why they decided to leave...
Has this happened to any of you?
I know I need to just let this roll off my back and not take it personally. But I care about people in my real life and in my blog life. And that's so much easier said than done for me.