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Thursday, March 31, 2011


What to blog about? That's the question that plagues me these days.

I can't tell you how many times I've gotten on this page to compose a new post, but then I change my mind. I just don't know what to write about. And it's not for a lack of ideas, for my brain is surely swimming with lots of thoughts and feelings about lots of different things.


I could blog about how I'm missing Grady and my mom something terrible these days.

I could blog about how I've seen certain friendships in my life change over the last two years. Some in good ways. Others not so much. It makes me happy and sad. Mainly sad.

I could blog about how happy my heart feels when Matthew smiles at me, first with his eyes.

I could blog about how I miss my husband terribly on these intensely busy, long days of work and school. I keep telling myself this is a season of life that won't last forever.

I could blog about how I've done a decent job of keeping my house straightened up since cleaning it really good a couple of weeks ago. Sure there are places that need my attention, but it's much better than it was.

I could blog about how I've grown to love the bookmark tool on the computer, and I recently used it to pick out my necklace I want for Mother's Day this year.

I could blog about the fact that I'm excited to get my hair done tomorrow and am seriously considering chopping it off. Seriously.

I could blog about how anxious I am about Matthew's upcoming surgery...more the anesthesia than the actual surgery.

I could blog about how excited I am that next week is Spring Break for Gib and the girls...even though Gib has already informed me that most of his time will be spent doing school work. But if things work out, I will be seeing one of my besties from out of town. :)

I could blog about the fact that Jessica has a boyfriend, and I'm a wee bit a lot freaked out about it, seeing as how they ride the bus together. And one of her friend's took their picture this week. And his arm was very awkwardly around her shoulders (note: hand not even touching her shoulder!). And how my stomach felt a little sick when I saw it. And how Jessica said he only put his arm around her because her friend told him to. And how I don't want to admit that she's growing up...

I could blog about how good it feels to have some bills paid off from our recent tax refund. And barring anything unexpected, we have enough left to take a summer vacation. :)

I could blog about how scared we were for Gib's brother and his family last week in Colorado, when the wildfires came within one mile of their house and they had to evacuate, not knowing if their home was still standing or not. Everything turned out fine.

I could blog about how easy it is for others to blow things off. But I guarantee if it was happening in their life, it would be a big deal to them.

I could blog about how Emma Grace's school conference went absolutely great yesterday. She is doing great, reading on a third grade level and blowing her teacher away with her math skills. She is pretty amazing when it comes to numbers, I must admit.

I guess I should have just done a "Tidbits" post, but I honestly didn't know where this was going when I started writing. I could take each one of these ideas/thoughts and expand them into a full post. But I just don't want to today. So there.

So long.

For now!



  1. I could have written this post. Dealing with some of the same issues....Thinking of you friend.

  2. Tonya,
    I can relate to so many things. Tonya, I am picking out a necklace for Mother's Day too... is yours from Vintage pearl by chance??? :) They actually have a store in Tulsa:)

    That is so scary with Gibs brothers house... I hate wildfires... they scare me like crazy. We have had a lot here in Ok too, but none near us...

    Tonya, I am praying for Matthew's surgery next week... please keep us updated... Maybe we can talk over Spring Break... I know we are both busy... but I know you can relate to SOOOO Much of the mixed feelings I have right now... Over the moon... yet missing Samuel like crazy too:)

    Love you friend!

  3. We are praying for sweet Matthew. Let us know more of how to pray as well. I think about you guys so much. And I hope to see you really soon.

    I could have written a lot of this post too. Oh, Lord be near.

    love you,

  4. Praying for Matthew's surgery to go well. Praying for you too momma, and for Gib and the girls. Life can certainly get hectic! But each day we can face it with God's help...and by His grace. With a lot of prayer from our friends! (:>) Blogging has given me a ministry of prayer for my new sisters in Christ!

    Love, Linda @ Truthful tidbits