Thank you for visiting my blog! If you are visiting because you have experienced a pregnancy or infant loss, let me say that I am so very sorry. I started this blog shortly after our Baby Grady was stillborn on November 12, 2008. Please visit the sidebar below called "Labels" to find the topic in which you are interested, or just read as your heart desires.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Just Some Words

How can it possibly have been two weeks since I last posted?!?!

I just sat down to blog about Matthew's 12 (and 13) month updates, and I'm honestly too tired. I am frustrated with myself that it has taken me so long because I'm forgetting exactly what he was doing at one year. At least I have memories from the Bahamas to draw from to help me some. :)

I've been seriously considering not blogging anymore. I feel like I've lost my blogging "voice", and I have found it hard to carve out time to devote to it. I'm disappointing myself, and in many ways, I feel like I'm disappointing those of you who visit my blog, too. I feel like I used to have so much to say. And, believe me, I still do! Never at a loss in that department. But I feel like a lost sheep who can't find her way back home in this blog world right now...

I still grieve Grady and would love to share. However, I feel like I've said it all before.

I love my family and want to share about them, but haven't you heard enough about us all by now?

I still struggle with organization and keeping a clean house. Nothing new in that area of my life.

I'm trying to revamp my grocery budget and save our family some money, or at least have extra to apply to the more "fun" aspects of life.

My children are growing too fast, my husband still loves me (I think), my hair is still white as snow and I'm still trying to figure out this thing called life (which I know will never really happen).

Nothing new.

And truly I'm not complaining. Just trying to justify my absence from this blog of mine, and from you, my sweet blog friends.

One thing I do know for sure is that my hands are shaking so bad that I can hardly type this. Buddy started barking out the sidelights of the front door. As I approached the door, I could have sworn the door knob rattled, and I noticed the door was unlocked. Oh my! (Jenny, I'm thinking of you! HA!)

And the other thing I know for sure?

I'm going to bed!

Night Night!


  1. Well, I for one would miss you if you stopped blogging. Why not just fit it in when you feel like it...and don't worry about it. That's what I do! (:>)

    But for sure you do need to follow your heart...and only do it if you want to! (wink)

    I love your family picture at the top of your blog. You have a beautiful family Tonya.

    Lynnette's boys Silas and Jonas are getting baptized this Sunday! I am so excited. Do you still read her blog? She has a second book coming out in April, from Comfort Publishing. God continues to use her testimony to help people. Losing a child, (Or in her case 3 children) is so very hard...and you never ever forget them...but God does ease the pain as years go by. I love your testimony too Tonya. You have shared so many times...but it is always a story of your faith...and how it has sustained you.

    I love reading about your family, and I think you are beautiful! May God 's continue blessing rain down on you!

    Linda @ Truthful Tidbits

  2. Tonya, you know I feel the same way. Sometimes the words seem to pour out of my head and there's no where for them to go and then when I sit down to write, they're gone. : (
    I love you and I will read whatever you write.